Genius

July 27th, 2010 by Judi 4 comments »

First, the guy at Boots Camera implies that I’m an idiot when I take my camera in for him to check out. He didn’t USE the word “idiot,” but the look on his face told the story. AND he took a picture of my double chin. I will never, ever go back there.

Next, I think I “fixed” my business computer, which is the one I usually use to watch movies because I can adjust the sound loud enough to actually hear comfortably. So now it has no sound at all, and the control panel says I have “no audio device.” When I come home tonight, I am going to have to see if downloading drivers from Dell will restore the audio.

And then, if that were not enough, this morning I decided to look inside my big jewelry box, I can’t even remember for what, which involved taking it down off the closet shelf. In doing so, one of its drawers fell out, and the corner of the drawer hit me in the forehead. Duh.

Pure genius.

No Dust Under My Feet

July 26th, 2010 by Judi 3 comments »

Never let it be said that I let any dust gather under my feet. (Is that the way the ol’ cliche goes?)

Last week I received a sudden windfall of money. It wasn’t a huge amount, but when I realized it was really mine instead of somebody’s big mistake, I made sure it wasn’t going to stick around too long.

There were only a couple of items I’d really wanted for the house but felt I couldn’t afford .

I wanted a rocking chair for my office that I could move into my bedroom if I felt like it. (I got a rocker for my living room last month that’s temporarily residing in the office but will be moved back to the living room when the new one arrives.)

The other must-haves consist of a television and a DVD player.  Oh, yes, I can hear the whoops and hollers from all of you because I’ve been so blatant about not missing my TV. What I have enjoyed from time to time, though, are the instant-streams from Netflix, which I watch via my computers. There is a little difference, doncha think, between a 15″ computer screen and a 25″ television? Even that, admittedly, isn’t huge, but it’ll be good enough for wherever I decide to locate it. And I’ll finally be able to order the DVD’s from Netflix that are not available to stream.

I know, I know. I could have watched them on the computer, too. But I haven’t.

Why is it, when you order something to be shipped to you, all of a sudden you want it right then and there? I will be coming home every day anxious to see if anything’s waiting for me on the porch–devastated if it’s not. Starting tomorrow.

I ordered the TV and DVD player 10 minutes ago.

He’s Done It Again

July 25th, 2010 by Judi 6 comments »

The only reason I’m blogging right now is because I can’t be reading. My iTouch has temporarily run out of juice.

July 20 was D-Day. That would be Daniel Silva day. He is, pretty much, my favorite author nowadays. He releases one new book a year, so for those few days after I get the new book, I am one happy camper. For the rest of the year I wait.

If you like spy thrillers and haven’t yet experienced a Daniel Silva read, I encourage you to check him out.

For several years I took creative writing classes from Elnora King of Fresno.  Not only did she help me and a host of my writing buddies get published in various media, but she ruined my reading for all time. Unless whatever I’m delving into is exceptionally well-written, I read with (at least an invisible) red pen in hand. Daniel Silva is one of the few authors where the only red pen in evidence would be to mark all those wonderful turns of phrases he uses.

The Rembrandt Affair is the tenth in a series of novels featuring the protagonist Gabriel Allon, a legendary Israeli spy-assassin cum art restorer. The juxtaposition of the disparate halves of Gabriel’s life drives the novels. What I love most about Gabriel are his flaws. He’s a real person, not a superhero. He seeks as normal a life as a man with his past can have, but he’s driven to respond to his country’s needs–often as dictated by Ari Shamron, also legendary as the former head of the Israeli intelligence service. Silva paints Allon as conflicted, not wanting to do what he must. The novel is character-driven, and Silva takes pains to make those characters rounded and real. His prose is lyrical but not overdone, his images sharp and vivid.

My favorite sorts of books are those that make me reach for the encyclopedia (well, Wikipedia now) to learn more about the elements of the backstory. Silva from the beginning has made me want to learn more about the world of fine art, art restoration–and the world of spies, Israeli-style.

Time’s up. Gotta see if the iTouch is recharged.

The Bucket List

July 24th, 2010 by Judi 1 comment »

Penny, this one’s for you.

I regularly read some twenty blogs a day, including Penny’s. Not only do I stay caught up with what’s going on with friends old and new, but every once in a while a friend’s blog will jumpstart my own thoughts.

Penny’s had her share of challenges over the years, including the death of her beloved Larry six years ago. (How can it have been that long?)

She’s had hip replacements, and she’s been fraught with anxiety/panic attacks that kept her in her house for way too long. She’s done her best to overcome all those obstacles, and it’s been a one-day-at-a-time thing. Every time I haven’t heard about an anxiety attack for a while I think she’s finally kicked that bugaboo . . . and one shows up knocking on her door.

Despite all of that, she’s created a bucket list for herself. She’s not gonna give up on life, and she’s not going to let things get her down. She’s inspired me to do the same.

Thanks, Penny. I love you, too.

Don’t we all need a bucket list?

This will be a never-finished post, because I always want to have something more to look forward to. But here’s a start:

1.   I want to be in Alaska at either the start or the finish of the Iditarod.

2.  I want to see Denali (Mt McKinley).

3.  I want to stand on top of a mountain again.

4.  I want to see Mt Everest

Do you detect a pattern here?

***

On a different subject entirely, today (July 24) would have been my mother’s  101st birthday. She’s been gone now 21 years this past June 25. I’ve been trying to write a post about her since before June 25, and it’s just not coming out.   It’s not that I didn’t love my mother. I did. We didn’t get along awfully well (maybe because we were too much alike?), but we stuck together. Funny thing. For years after her death I would continue to think of things I “needed” to tell her–and then would realize that I couldn’t, at least not on this earthly plane. Our brains play funny tricks on us, don’t they?

Before she passed, she told me, “I hope you’ll make sure Farida and Nas get their share of the money I’m leaving, and I hope you’ll use yours to make a better life for yourself.”

I did, and I did.

My mother would never have wanted to live up here in the wilds of North Fork. She would have hated it, in fact. She couldn’t wait to get out of Vista when we lived there. (Just one more bone of contention between us–I always considered Vista my home and hated the move to San Gabriel.) But if it hadn’t been for my mom, I wouldn’t be where I am now–happy and enjoying life to the fullest. So I thank her every day for making this life possible. That’s what I was alluding to in this post.

The entry I just finished about Shevy was incredibly difficult, and thank heavens it’s done. Thank you for all your comments and your moral support. I feel that at long last I have said my goodbyes as they needed to be said, and I can move on.

Night Sounds

July 23rd, 2010 by Judi 3 comments »

It’s 10:00 p.m. on Tuesday night.  The sliding glass door is open in an attempt to catch the breezes.

The ceiling fan is twirling.

The dog is snoring lightly.

The cat is snoozing, which is all he does all day every day.

There are siren sounds and helicopter thwaps coming from outside. That’s a little scary. When it’s summer in the mountains, helicopters usually mean one thing:  FIRE. If it were daytime I’d race outside to look for the lumbering beast and see if it’s carrying a bucket beneath it. Since Cal Fire helicopters don’t fly at night, I think the thwap-thwap-thwap (which has since stopped, as has the siren) means something else entirely.

Thanks heavens.

Oops, it’s back and circling above the town of North Fork. No spotlight, though. That’s a good sign.

And for those of you (and you know who you are), who think you have nothing to blog about because all you’d done so far that day was go to Radio Shack . . . have you changed your mind yet? Just looking at the Facebook pictures of you and Rod McKuen and those hot air balloons tell me you’ve got a lot of stories stored up inside. P. S. I also loved the photos of the Tetons and Wind River. Beautiful memories, those.

Wind River Lake, Wyoming

What I Did, What I Learned

July 22nd, 2010 by Judi 2 comments »

Monday is one of my half-days. Despite the triple-digit heat that’s plagued us for a week, I came home from the Visitors Bureau full of ambition. I decided to tackle something I’d put off for too long.

Taxes.

I’d had my taxes ready to go–except for one miserable 1099 that wasn’t available on the date I’d originally sat down to work on the dreaded government forms, so I set them aside. And filed an extension. Pretty ridiculous when I’d lacked just that one item (plus, of course, the ritual of checking everything over twice or three times before submitting).

As with nearly everything I put off, it took me so little time to complete that I had to chastise myself for letting it go so long. It wasn’t a huge deal, and I didn’t need to self-flagellate over it. There were refunds, but they were small, so it’s not like I’ve let the IRS and the Franchise Tax Board keep a ton of my money.

What I did find out, however, is that as far as the telephone and electric companies are concerned, I am poverty level.

Farida had told me that I really needed to see if I qualified for the Lifelife and Care programs, but I needed to know my income in order to do that. So the next tasks I completed on Monday were to get the ball rolling on lowering the utility bills. I feel just a little guilty about that because my electric bill is (or was) already pretty low. Of course that will change as a result of the air conditioning I’ve been running.

Oh, that’s the other thing. I learned to read my electric meter. This is no great feat of genius when you consider that I have a “Smart Meter.”  Digital. Easy to read. I can now calculate pretty closely what PG&E is going to bill me before the statement arrives.

I’m so proud of myself.

Goodbye, Shevy

July 21st, 2010 by Judi 4 comments »

Paul Williamson, Bugler Extraordinaire

Continued from Blood, Sweat, Tears and Taps.

One correction needs to be made from the information reported there. When Sara read my post, she said, “I didn’t find out Paul’s age until we were on the trail. I didn’t have the nerve to ask his age directly, so I asked him the year he was born.”

I’d misreported that she’d found out at Von’s, before we left Oakhurst. If she had, she might have taken us aside and redesigned our plan.  As it was, we didn’t know, and we proceeded.

***

Shevy was not the fan of Yosemite that I am. In fact he’d told me that he’d been to the park more often since we’d been together than in all the years before that, put together. Still, he loved the hike to Sentinel Dome as much as any he’d done. He loved the 360 degree view from the top of the dome, and he loved the “top-of-the-world” feeling it gave those who ascended it. We’d climbed it in early morning, and we’d climbed it at sunset to watch the moonrise over the Clark Range. We’d negotiated that rocky trail by the light of headlamps, and Shevy had helped to doctor a fallen hiker in the very spot where Paul took his tumble.

That we were on this particular trail together to celebrate Shevy’s life (not his passing) was entirely fitting.

That we were there with a 92-year-old adventurer-raconteur-musician and life-of-the-party type fellow was even more so.

Shevy was no musician. He couldn’t carry a tune (although he could do a passable job of whistling the theme from “Bridge of the River Kwai” while I butchered it), but all those other things Paul is, Shevy was. As I began to realize having Paul there was almost like Shevy being with us, the tears began to flow, and they continued intermittently through the morning. Too many memories. Good ones.

Sara told me that Shevy’s non-stop talking actually was a later-in-life phenomenon. When the kids were growing up, he was mostly silent, and he engendered a certain amount of fear in them.  He made up for the silence in spades as he aged. As we hiked trails all over Yosemite and the Sierra Nevada, he would talk to everyone we met along the way. Sometimes he’d engage hikers from Britain or France or Tasmania in conversations so long the listeners’ eyes would begin to glaze over. Shevy wouldn’t notice, but I would, and I’d gently try to find a way to pull him away.

Paul was much the same. He clearly loved to tell stories, and he relished the company this outing afforded him.

Once planted on the rocky seat we found for him, Paul opened his trumpet case and pulled out the well-worn instrument he loved. It dated way back and had served him well as he’d actually performed with well-known bands. Wynton Marsalis had even expressed an interest in playing it. (That’s the problem with writing from memories several weeks old. Paul regaled us with tales from his youth and his earlier adult years, but I can’t remember the details. Where was my mini-digital recorder when I needed it? Back home in my office, of course.)

Sara took out the American flag she’d brought along and draped it over the rock in front of Paul.

“My friend Betty told me Jews place stones on a grave as a mark they were there to honor the deceased,” I mentioned, as I looked about for a stone to place beside the flag. The others did the same. It was like having Betty there with me, and she’d been with me at the memorials for both my mother and father.

Stones for Remembrance

When we’d hit the trail an hour before, there weren’t that many other people on it. Now more and more folks were passing by the spot where we’d set up camp. We waited for them to pass by before Paul began to play.

As the trail cleared in both directions, Paul raised the trumpet to his lips and sounded a crystal-clear version of the melody that for centuries has signaled the closing of a life.

Taps for Shevy

Paul certainly wasn’t shy, and he wanted to give Shevy his full due. After he finished “Taps,” he played and sang “Amazing Grace,” and then went on to “Claire de Lune” in honor of his wife.

After he’d finished, some of the folks went on to summit the Dome, while Angela, Nehanda and I waited. It gave Paul the perfect opportunity to share some of his memories with us. Turns out he was an educator, too, as Shevy was. And he impacted lives, as Shevy did.

After the rest of the group returned from the Dome, John decided to scout out the road I’d remembered from previous trips. We wanted to be sure we wouldn’t have Paul walk that distance only to find out it was a road to nowhere. Although once again he’d never admit it, he’d done about as much hiking as his 92-year-old body could handle. Just getting him to where he could get into the car would be enough for him.

After no more than five or ten minutes, John came back. “The road’s right up there.”

We got the gear packed up, and I slipped a rock  into my pocket. That’s a no-no. You’re not supposed to remove even a pine cone from a national park, but I needed a permanent remembrance of the day.

As you can see from the photos, Paul wore his U S Navy hat.

U S Navy all the way

The one thing missing from this gathering, besides Shevy himself, was Shevy’s Korean vet hat. He’d bought it one day when we’d stopped at the Fresno VA hospital to see about medical benefits. He wore that hat proudly whenever he felt he’d be around people who’d appreciate his military service. It would have been fitting to place it atop the flag while “Taps” was played.

After we got Paul up and going again with John, the rest of us headed back the way we’d come to get the cars.

It was a simple, unstructured ceremony out in the Yosemite wilderness.

Perfect for the simple, unstructured, unassuming fellow it honored.

Granddaughters Nehanda and Angela

Granddaughter Angela, daughter Sara, granddaughter Anna

Granddaughter Tiana (Tinker)

Listening - Nehanda, Tinker, Sara, John

Frogs and Flying Dressing

July 20th, 2010 by Judi 5 comments »

Is it a sign of incipient dementia when you loosen the cap on your salad dressing . . . and then proceed to shake it?

On another note, the reptile house had a new visitor on Sunday. A tiny frog. In my bathroom. Was he looking for water, since the frog pond has long since dried up? I don’t know.

Luckily I invited favorite son-in-law over for dinner  since he is currently baching it while the rest of the family visits in Santa Ana. As a condition of my feeding him, I asked him to remove said frog from said bathroom. He did it but seemed to think it was pretty chickens**t of me not to corral the critter myself. After all, the frog was one-millionth the size of the giant snake I extricated.

The adventures continue (as does the work on the finish to the Sentinel Dome hike post). Soon, my friends, soon.

Happy Blog Birthday to Me

July 19th, 2010 by Judi 4 comments »

Birthday Rose

A year ago today this blog took wing.

It’s been a year of many, many changes.

One of the biggest changes is the number of friends (and family) with whom I’ve been able to keep in contact. Although the last couple of months have shown a decrease in the number of posts I’ve put up, my goal is to get back to blogging on a daily basis.

Can’t begin to express how much I enjoy being able to share adventures and mis-adventures with all of you–and getting almost immediate feedback and moral support when it’s needed.

I love hearing from all of you . . . the friends I know by sight and the ones I know as a result of this blog. You are all treasures.

Blood, Sweat, Tears and Taps

July 17th, 2010 by Judi 4 comments »

Everyone mourns a death in his own way, and that’s as it should be. No one should dictate the “right” way to grieve the passing of a friend or relative.

Stones and Stripes

As is obvious from the multitude of posts since his death on February 7, I am still coming to terms with the loss of Shevy.

You might well ask, “why does it matter to you? You weren’t with him anyway.”

In some ways that’s spot on. Because he’d been angry with me the last time I heard from him, I actually avoided him in our small mountain community. I once went into the Carl’s Jr in Oakhurst, saw him sitting there (he didn’t see me), and I left. I didn’t want a confrontation. But the strange thing is that I knew, with every fiber of my being, that if I’d needed him at any time, he would have come running.

I would have been there for him, too. The picture in my mind’s eye of his lying on his bedroom floor waiting for the help that took too long to come because he couldn’t reach his phone breaks my heart. My brain tells me it’s not your fault. My heart tells me there must be something I could have done.

He was always a friend, first and foremost, and neither of us ever stopped caring about the other. Didn’t stop either of us from getting angry, though.

When his son, Jim, told me he’d died, I couldn’t believe it.  At four months prior to his 80th birthday, he was still out hiking with our Sierra Hiking Seniors and he was still shoveling the mounds of snow that piled up in front of his Cascadel Woods house. In spring he’d mow his 15 acres–carefully avoiding the Elegant Madias and the Five-Spots and the Wild Iris–as he rode. He chopped trees, and he did everything else one has to do to keep a 2,000 sq ft house surrounded by 15 acres up-and-running in the mountains. That he wouldn’t make it to his 80th was unthinkable.

His sons held a BBQ in Shevy’s honor at the Cascadel Woods house on May 1. There was loads of delicious food, most of it prepared by Shevy’s beloved daughter-in-law, Josie. All of his children were there. A number of friends and family came by to pay their respects. It was lovely, but for me it wasn’t Shevy. I guess his daughter, Sara, felt the same way because she asked me later if we could do a hike in her dad’s memory. I agreed immediately because it seemed like the perfect way to remember the essence of who he was.

There were many starts and stops on the way to doing the hike, but on July 5 it all came together. Sara was concerned that the hike wouldn’t attract enough people. I kept assuring her that exactly the right people would be there. And they were. She’d decided that we’d hike the trail to Sentinel Dome, and that seemed perfect, as well. Shevy and I hiked that very trail a number of times when we were together, and it never failed to take our breath away as we gazed out at the 360-degree view of Yosemite from the Dome’s summit.

There were eight of us:  Sara, her brother John and his daughter Anna; Sara’s daughters Angela, Nehanda and Tiana (Tinker) and me.

Nehanda, Angela, Tinker, Anna

John

The eighth person was Paul Williamson.

His military service and the time he spent in Korea during the Korean police action were extremely important to Shevy. I think they ultimately shaped his view of himself and his world. Sara decided to see if she could find a bugler to play taps in order to honor that part of her father’s life. Paul Williamson answered that request. Although Sara had just about decided to give up on the idea, Paul kept calling until finally Sara agreed to his accompanying us. What a surprise we were all in for.

When Sara introduced me to Paul in the Von’s parking lot that July 5 morning, I had a moment of trepidation. Out of earshot, Sara leaned over and whispered in my ear, “he was born in 1918.” Doing some quick mental math, I realized that made him 92 years old.

Sara

How were we going to get a 92-year-old man and his trumpet up to the summit of Sentinel Dome? Yet Paul absolutely refused to back down. He claimed he’d hiked the trail before and was quite capable of doing it.

No matter what, he wasn’t going to be dissuaded. He’d never met Shevy, but he felt some sort of a bond with a fellow veteran. They were a generation apart. They’d served in different wars:  Paul in World War II, Shevy in Korea, but there were so many similarities it was uncanny. It was like having Shevy there with us–and I’m sure he was.

The trail to the Dome is relatively easy as Yosemite high country hikes go. Most of

On the trail

the trail is a bit uneven with a few rocks to watch out for along the way. It seems like every time I hike the trail, though, I forget about the part in the middle where granite rocks and boulders try to trip you up. Unfortunately that’s exactly what they did to Paul. An amazing trooper, he refused to complain, and he refused to turn around. We gave him every opportunity. He said no. Emphatically. But the rock got the better of him, and down he went. Thank goodness John was there to help out. His strength and his training as an EMT, although not put to use in a good long while, came in very handy. He helped Paul up, assessed his condition and, with Sara, bandaged the scrapes to his hand. All of us felt incredibly lucky that he seemed to have suffered no other lasting damage.

John and Sara managed to hoist Paul up and get him somewhat steady on his feet. We were at a point on the trail where it would have been at least as difficult to go back as to continue forward, so we had to make a decision.

“I remember a service road that comes off the trail up ahead. I think it meets with Glacier Point Road,” I said. “If we can find it, we can take Paul out that way. The trail from here on gets much less rocky.”

Paul Williamson

We all agreed that we should find a place along the trail to do the little ceremony we’d planned. We came across the perfect spot. A big granite boulder faced a smaller one with a cut in it, as if it were designed to be a seat. We persuaded Paul that this was the place. Secretly I think he was relieved, although he never came close to admitting it. He grew to seem more and more like Shevy every minute–the Shevy who would never say “quit,” who would give his all for every adventure.

What a blessing that Paul was there for and with us that day.

Tomorrow:  The ceremony to honor Shevy